Bullshit

Even my enemy would admit that this is an extremely difficult phase of life that I am going through. Each and every moment a new challenge is being thrown up. This is applicable both on the professional as well as the personal front. Not that I want to bore you with petty details from my life, but thought this was an information which could enable you to know about the true state of my mind. Do you know what hurts me the most? It is "being misunderstood". You do a task thinking it would do good to kith and kin and then when you find out that the same people, for whom you had sacrificed, are stabbing you behind your back, it really hurts! And personally I feel, people should never ever speak ill at the back of others. It is sheer hypocrisy to do so. Even today I feel guilty about the one or two incidents where I myself had been involved in such deeds, though I also remember having apologized to the concerned people later on. Then again I am tired of playing the same roles on the stage of life and the director (read God) is adamant on me continuing with those roles. He just would not give me anything new to try my hands on. I am also tired and disgusted at the 'oh-so-goody-goody' image that I have (or rather people say)! From experience I can tell, these 'goody-goody' sorts are forever showered with brotherly affection, not something that I am in strict denial of! But you must agree, too much or too less of a particular ingredient does not make a dish particularly tasty! Varieties need to exist and I need varieties!

I am also horribly tired of the missed calls that I occasionally get on my cell from unknown numbers at unearthly times. I just want to let these *ssholes know that if you have the guts (or balls), come in front and show your face, else just f*** off!

Please excuse me for the raw language that is in use today in this post. Probably it is required to denote the exact state of my mind as well as my temperament. I am disgusted at a lot of other things, but I do not feel it safe to vent those out in this public forum. Rather I would save them for my diary, which I update occasionally! Sorry for boring you with all sort of bullshit! Next time, I would come back with something for enjoyable for all of you! Take care, friends!